When I was 15, I thought I was in love with my boyfriend. We did
everything together. He was my world. My mom and his grandma were good
friends. Everyone was happy that we were together. We lost our virginity
to each other. One day I was not feeling good and thought I was
pregnant, so I told my boyfriend. He said, “No, you’re probably just
sick,” so I brushed it off. I was getting lazy, sleeping all day, and I
knew I was pregnant. So I told him again, and he just looked at me. He
tried to make me have a miscarriage by squeezing my stomach. My brother
even pushed me down stairs. My mom came to his house one day while we
were watching TV. She took my boyfriend outside to talk. When she came
back in, she told me to leave with her and I did. My boyfriend could not
even look me in the eyes before I left. My mom and I sat in the car for
a while, and she said nothing to me. She went to the store and had me
wait in the car. We got home and she said that I was going to take a
pregnancy test. I took it, and she looked at it and started crying,
saying, “You’re pregnant, you messed your life up…” I started to cry,
and she told me I was getting an abortion. I told my boyfriend, but he
did not care so I said OK, I guess this is what I’m doing. My mom set
the appointment. When I got there I was scared. They checked me over to
see how far I was. I was 2 months, 3 days. I got the abortion, and for a
few weeks all I could hear was a baby crying.
To this day, I regret having the abortion. I wish I could go back and
undo what is done, but I can’t. I still cry about it. I ended up with a
new boyfriend a year later, and we’ve been together for four years. I
told him about the abortion, and he said it’s fine as long as I don’t
get another one. I said I wouldn’t. Well, I ended up pregnant with his
baby at 19, and my mom was pissed. She said she was disowning me and
that I had to get another abortion. She told me I was not allowed to see
my boyfriend anymore. He and his mom ended up coming to the house to
talk to my mom, but my mom wouldn’t listen. So my mom set up the
abortion, and all I could do is cry. It was so much drama. She would not
let me eat anything; I was getting sick. I was losing so much weight so
fast. I finally told her I would get the abortion, but my boyfriend
said if I got the abortion, then we were done. I got the abortion and
told him I had a miscarriage. He was hurt, but we are still together. I
told my mom that she made my life a living hell. I killed two of my
unborn children because it’s what she wanted. I was old enough to say
something, but I didn’t because I did not want my mom mad at me. I think
about the abortions all the time. I know I make a mistake the first
time, and I should have kept it the second time. I don’t talk to my mom
anymore because she kept bringing the abortions up and saying she wishes
I would have kept both kids.
To those ladies that want an abortion, think about it first. Think about
what you’re going to do to your self and what you want. I hurt every
day because of my poor decisions.
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